Thursday, June 25, 2015

June Bug

Horizon like
I will stretch heaven
A steeled canopy
To form her sky
Eternal I will guard her
So she may never know
The feeling of a wail caught
At the point of swallow
Where my name only escapes
In hiccuping mouthfuls of pain
Elevating, levitating, elongating
Contorting ethereal umbrella
I will drift above her life
Deflecting, absorbing
She will never have to miss me
I will fade into a distant wonder
and echo in her heart

©2015 Nicole Marie Vilencia Hazard

Friday, January 16, 2015

No Tombstones on the Wind

When my blood pumper’s all done pumping
And I no longer hear it thumping
And my mind has finally quieted
From the ways it spent days all riotous
When I can no longer say what I’m thinking
And my chest has quit rising and sinking
When my skin is a bag of bones
And there’s no lights on and nobody home
When I am nowhere to be found on my person
And you’ve finally called the hearse in
Do not write on a tombstone for me
Tombstones can’t fly where I'll go free
Toss me to air to die as I've been

Nothing but stardust on a sweet blowing wind

© 2015 Nicole Vilencia Hazard

Thursday, July 17, 2014

TNT&A

Stifle, stifle, until you crack like a rifle
Triggered by the index of a sharp shooter mind
Sorted, categorized, chronological order
Offenses pile up leaving excuses behind
That old rifle can hang over the fireplace forever
And never hurt anyone
It's all water under the bridge
Until Mama gets the gun
She shoved it down so long
Just to keep peace she was quiet
But today she broke like a goddamn
And Mama is ready to riot
There's not a woman who can keep her tongue
When she's of mind to burst
Better she vent a little along the way
Than blow up with her worst

© 2014 Nicole Marie Vilencia

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

Back Up Bitch

Eyes squeezed shut and trembling
Razor pinned, behind curled lip,
The boned bitch guards her prize
Hard to growl without losing grip
She never had much of one to start
Chasing bones to fill her heart
Within her emptiest spaces
Abandoned and alone she shuffled
One place to another, always stray
One bed to another, just a lay
Catching breaths here and there
Never catching a break, trying to
Make some love, a life,
A connection with anyone
In a corner is backed
Defending everything she’s lacked
Guarding the prize between her teeth
She bites down to make it bleed
Staking claim with pregnant need
Rabid, sick, consumptive
She lacks control
She believes she thinks
Faster than a locomotive
Able to leap tall tales
In a single bound
All she sees is a giant V
When she looks down
But it doesn’t matter
Because she can’t read
The writing on the wall
If you ask, she’s got it handled
And there’s nothing wrong at all


© 2014 Nicole Marie Vilencia

Difficult

You love me when I’m pretty
Shining bright and smart
You love me when I’m open
Offering up my heart
You love me when I’m tender
Vulnerable and sweet
You love me and you love me and
You sweep me off my feet
But can you love me when I’m human
When I’m mistaking left and right
When I’m less than perfect
Standing in bad light
Can you love me all disheveled
Dirty with sweat and grime
Can you love me when I’m filthy
Can you love me all the time
Can you love me when I’m soured
When my fuse is short, with patience thin
Can you love me when I’m grumpy
When I’m caught up in the spin
Can you love me when I am a mess
Of emotions I can’t  quell
Can you hold me in one spot 
When living with me is hell
You love me when I’m easy
When I’m shining like a sun
But can you love me on days like this
Where my seams have come undone
Will I be worth the work
When work is what it will take
To calm the storm inside of me

And bring me back to the love we make?

© 2014 Nicole Marie Vilencia

Thursday, May 29, 2014

Puzzled

I never knew I would be safe
Being so open and free
Expressing everything I am
Not hiding what’s inside of me

You are my now and forever
You are the heart of me tender

Here you are, my champion,
Arms open, heart willing and ready
Holding me closely to you
Whenever I’m not feeling steady

I crave your arms to sleep at night
Your touch with every morning light

Even my darkest secrets
Do not define me in your eyes
Even my lacks and my weakness
Do not cause you alarm or surprise

Every yearning inside of me
Is for your love guiding me

You look at me with a wonder that
Makes me wonder at your clarity
Holding even tighter to you
I appreciate your rarity

Has always been, will always be

You the other part of me

© 2014 Nicole Marie Vilencia

Thursday, April 24, 2014

Brimming


I can sleep all night
no tossing, no turning
I can use my light
to keep the home fires burning

There are no bears crawling
Goldilocksy to my bed
There are no dragons hatching
in nightmares, my head

In five minutes I might
burst open in bliss
But I will wait, I think,
until after we kiss

I can breathe deep and easy
No worries supersede
The way we mesh together
And meet each other's needs

So I will rest my eyes now
A thankful heart brimming
All full of hope
My dreamy head swimming

© 2014 Nicole Marie Vilencia

Wednesday, April 16, 2014

Health Hazard

There is a place I belong beside you
Under, arm tucked, head resting
Atop each heartbeat,
Ear held and love bound

There is a place I belong, touching you
Finger painting calm neck to spine  circles
Warming with your skin
All words and no sound

There is a place I belong within you
Heart held and safer than ever before
Shoulders giving up the world
Fear lost and strength found

© 2014 Nicole Marie Vilencia

Friday, April 11, 2014

Pup

I could stab you with these scissors
Or slice you with my wit
Neither scar would get you far
There’d be no benefit

You’re the young pup
Nipping on big dog heels
You’re the fat tick sucking
On the healthy for your meals

You have no idea how clueless
Or out of your depth you are
Your mirror only shows you
A massive rockin’ star

There are days I want to cut you
Until you bleed out on the floor
You would do well to talk less
And stop keeping score

You have a modicum of talent
And it could take you all the way
If you stop tripping on yourself
You’ve got some dues to pay

There is knowledge around you
That would be freely shared
But your ego is too big right now
You are self-impaired

Time to bring it down a notch
Maybe five or ten
Someday you’ll be an old dog
Howling “remember when”

But until that day comes
Less mouth, more ears and brain
You think that you are clever
But you really are a pain

© 2014 Nicole Marie Vilencia



Wednesday, February 26, 2014

No Words





































We were imagined in the ether
Wrought of each other’s need
Stardust crafted, divinely designed
Universally agreed
A lifetime first we wandered
For years within plain sight
Darkness hid the spark we shared
Now, no dimming for the light
We burst like a new sun
Over the horizon of each other
Hand in hand we face tomorrow
My heart, my flame, my lover


© 2014 Nicole Marie Vilencia